My Bible

I rehearsed it in my mind
What would I say if I ever seen you again,
Would I scurry around the corner like a pathetic vitim avoiding a bully
Would I solidify like a frightened child who had just got caught doing something she shouldnt had
I played it over and over in my head, repeatedly saying cut, do over, or back from scene one,
I sought for it to end like one of my favorite movies, Love & Basketball or Love Jone
Yeaaaa just like Love Jones, I loved that ending scene more,
It kinda connects with me....LOVE.....JONES
I would pretend and pose numerous questions I had always wanted to ask you,
And biasally I would answer them for you but all in my favor...
Several times I picked up the phone, but my fingers wouldn't dare dial.

WAIT....

I really dont understand this. I am like so confused, more confused then where you had left me before. I was doing so much better, I was actually doing great. Better than I had ever felt in life, and then you just had to make peace. Your maturity caught me off guard, and every feeling I ever had for you that was almost completely locked away came back, you contacting me caused my mind to tell my heart that there is hope. I know I am talking complete foolishness, but I cant help to be honest. I look back at the nothing that we had and my only question to myself is why would I ever want to go back. Lord knows I had over a million questions to utter to you but I didnt want to scare you off. Oh my I keep telling myself I have the greatest man beside me but why is it I keep looking back.