My Bible

They say the only stupid question is an unasked question, so I have many. Twenty two years ago I was brought into this world..and since the first time I could comprehend I questioned why was I chosen to enter a world where I constantly feel like the prey...can u believe I am writing this now all on my phone while sitting in the corner with tears running down my face. Why is it that the task I am given I can't travel the same route as others. Why would u bring me love when faith even said love don't live here anymore. I hate ever moment in my life but still I wake up and question u because your my creator and still you never reply. You promised that my praises would be answered but they never was so I gave up on u because it seems you gave up on me. I went to church..yes I did and not to become apart of the fashion show...I wasn't a hypocrite neither...I went all the time sometime more then once a week...all by myself too..won a trophy for knowin parts of the book inside in out...but yet again I get no gratification..or is it selfish of me to want an award for something I should be doing...I mean I kno a couple of times I danced wit the devil but neither him can bring me to a high....where were u when I was being touched and abused or do u believe I asked 4 it...y would u give me a parent who wasn't a parent...I would of rather not known who he was...u see I have my questions Mr almighty but when the fuck will I get the answers...I am not going to sugar coat my frustration because that's never me...imma dish it out like I was dished out in this world...surrounded with perfection with all the ppl pointing at the flaws in me..I thought u did sumthin when u filled my heart wit red but you took him away too..in the most fucked up way and ever since i been dead...but let me kno this why is it when I feel they gave up on me and u gave up on me I can't give up myself...u know its tough to grow in cold and sooner than later I might throw in the towel and give u my soul